Getting older....but am I wiser?

It's that time of the year again where I start counting how many candles I have on my birthday cake. Every year the candles increase in number doesn't it....hehe....doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out. Well I've finally reached the big 3-0 and I took the week off to reflect back just where have I been, where I am and where am I going to. What do I really want out of life?

Well, it was at this age that Jesus started His public ministry and died 3 years later when His work was done. Pity that He died at the prime of His life, some may say but I look at it and wonder, can I complete my purpose in my generation by 3 years time? What is my purpose in my generation? I look at myself and think, "Man, I still have a long way to go!"

My young adults group leader "volunteered" me to be the "sitting duck" in their "target practice" today. Hmm...not a practice everyone would like to do on their birthday. The main reason he wanted to do that was to give a chance for the people in the group to air their complaints, comments and compliments about me and I have a chance to defend, explain myself, all for the purpose of building good relationships within the group. Some of the things they said was not easy medicine to take especially knowing I've hurt some people unknowingly but generally they do understand where I'm coming from and how I work.

I'm not perfect and as God blesses me with more years to my life, I will strive to increase in wisdom and stature, and in favour with God and man" (Luke 2:40,52 KJV)
My young adults group finally surprised me with a chocolate ice cream birthday cake (yummy...my favourite!! thanx guys!) and even took a picture of it...haha. Yup, "Charlie", this is definitely a birthday I will not forget ;)

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