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It's All About CONTROL...

It was right after the Unboxed Event that I encountered this temptation…the temptation to know my FUTURE!!! One of the diploma students was doing some tarot cards reading with some lecturers and students right outside the courtyard where we had our event.

So as the saying goes, “Curiosity killed the cat”…well, I was curious enough to stand there and listen as one by one sat down to have their “fortunes read”. And sure enough one thing led to another, I ended up in front of the girl too, wanting to know what my “fortune held for me”. After hearing all the spicy details that my students and colleagues had in their “fortunes”, I was hoping to hear some spicy details about mine too.

When the cards were finally shuffled and laid out to be read, all she said was, “Nothing major is happening in your life right now. Everything’s under control. There are minor problems here and there but that’s part of life.” I was like, “That’s it? Gosh my life is so boring!” She gave me a look and said, “I didn’t say that. It’s just that you have your life under control. Everything that comes your way, you are able to handle it. If you keep what you are doing now, you will eventually be able to fulfil your dreams.”

Then my student who was standing next to me started getting cheeky and asked, “What about her love life? Or her sex life?” I gave my student a warning look but he just kept on encouraging the tarot reader. So she said, “Nothing major is happening in her love life. Or in her sex life.” Of course there’s nothing happening in my sex life…I’m not married yet!! Then she said something that gave me a shock… “Her boyfriend is not doing anything major about the relationship either.” I looked at her and said, “What boyfriend? I don’t have a boyfriend.”

She just shrugged and said, “Well the cards say there is definitely someone who is in love with you. Maybe he hasn’t appeared in your life yet or he hasn’t made known his feelings to you yet.” By now I don’t know whether to believe her or not anymore. I mean anyone can say anything in general and we just believe them and make all these “self-fulfilling prophecies”. Well, forgive me but I am a sceptic about a lot of things and it turns out that I was not the only one because my colleague wanted to do it a second time just to see whether the cards will be the same as the first time a few minutes ago. Well it turned out a little different but the majority of it was the same. Coincedence? Well, you make your own decision.

Well, after going through all the things that were said that night, I felt so bad, I repented and prayed for forgiveness. God told us to TRUST HIM and nobody else about our future. He is the one that holds our future in His hands and nothing is going to happen to us that He has not allowed it and He does it in our best interest because He loves us more than life itself. I know we like to know our future so that we can control how we want it to turn out. But I have come to the conclusion that I am never and never will be in control of my future and the only way I can have a life which is under control is a life under His control.

So I will still continue to dance to my heart’s desire and it doesn’t matter if I don’t achieve my dreams, I’m just doing what I’m passionate about. Below are just some pix (tho quite blur cos it was taken from my handphone) taken of two of my dance ‘kaki’ who helped to perform for our Unboxed Event. The main dancer couldn’t make it last minute due to fever but I thought the red fans were cool!















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