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I miss HOME!!!

Maybe it's the Christmas ambience that makes you nostalgic and makes you think of home. Maybe it's been really that long since I went back to my hometown to spend time with my family. Or maybe it's because God has set eternity in our hearts and this longing for a place called HOME....a place where we feel where we really belong, which is in Heaven, at the feet of Jesus.

I woke up this morning and just had this longing for HOME. My housemates just moved out of my house this week and so I'm all alone in the house again. I kinda welcomed the stillness and solitude after coming home to a house full of people for the past one year. Always being surrounded by people the whole day, I really treasure the opportunity to be alone and recharge my energy. And yet at times, I wished that I didn't come home to an empty house but to a house of people I love and who loved me and are glad to see me come home....especially miss my dog, Leesha.

Why this unrest in my spirits? This longing to be HOME....the longing to just worship God the whole day....I love to sing and worship Him. This weariness of the daily grind, of putting up with the commuting stress. The longing to do something I really love instead of shuffling papers everyday. Gosh, I really don't want to grow old and become a cranky old lady but the lifestyle in KL here just have a way of making people become hostile and stressed out.

Why do we pay so much for "location" when the real value of a house isn't worth that much? I love to cook and entertain, and how I wish I had a house of my own, where I can open up my house and entertain guests, for visiting missionaries/friends, for my care group. I love to make music, but hardly have the time or energy to touch my musical instruments lately. I love to pursue knowledge and learn new skills, but don't have the financial resource nor the time....FRUSTRATION!!

Daddy, how long more? How my soul yearns for Thee, to be where You are....

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